"Truth is " I Needed " Jesus Christ. . . "
Hey haven't Heard the New Gospel Single "Beautiful" yet? Be sure to open the Music tab for a Listen. "Beautiful" is a song of total transparency.She shares her testimony of what Jesus Christ done in her Life. The song expresses; despite how ugly our life's become God is still Beautiful,knowing that in our darkest moments Jesus Christ is there always. _
And they overcame him because of the blood of the Lamb,
and because of the word of their testimony;
- Revelation 12:11
I'm a walking, breathing, living testimony that God still saves and still delivers; that what was done 2,000 year's ago on Calvary can C -H- A- N- G- E your life. As I would some time prance over old images of myself; I see a hurting young women, desperate to be notice positive orNEGATIVE. I was a RAP ARTIST, from the music group The VIXENZ.We where know for a bold content of lyrics, but the conduct we portrayed was pretense to gain attention of the audience.
2009 our hits song " I Need That ", dropped making it's way through out the whole California regions, later on begin to progress to outer states such as; Texas, Louisiana, New York Suddenly, costing West Coast Artist Snoop Dogg to Remix our hit song and letting us be his opening performing act, for " When West was One" Tour. With in a year so many things begin to happen, from meeting with labels, to meeting other prominent people to the world (Kurput
, Dj quick, Too short, lil fizz, J-boog, Jay Rock, Yg, Nispey Hussell, Rejectz, the Rangerz & more ..), video shoots, interviews and performances in; L.A , I.E , The Bay and Las Vegas.After much success"I wasn't HAPPY!"
I referred myself to being like the walking dead. Soon a childhood friendship, became only about business.Going out was no longer fun neither safe, the more we became known. I recall waking up to hate messages frequently. At this time In my life smoked 7 blunts a day almost. I was miserable. I suffered Mental abuse, from trying to when a guys heart. It was clear, I needed help. So one night a " EX-BACKSLIDER" cried silently in the dark, using only three words. " LORD HELP ME!". The Lord had saved me at the Age 13, where I served diligent in the ministry singing in the choir, as unto the Lord. As years past my friends and I had nothing in common almost. Being different, left out , and peer pressure. I wanted to fit in so DENY MY SAVOIR" JESUS"- ONLY TO FIND A LIFE FULL OF TURMOIL AND PAIN.
Now it was January 2010 and
" I Need That" is on Radio (power106), as we strive to complete are mix-tape " Topic of Discussion" my group member took sick, in such a way, I picked up my B-I-B-L-E turning to find Proverb16:3 "Commit thy works unto the LORD, and thy thoughts shall be established." We was now at the peek of fame and now everything came crashing down. My seven Blunts a day was no longer a escape from reality, but now was snapping me into reality. Every time we smoked, we began to talk about God and Holy Spirit use to come down in visit us in our SIN. We was no longer high (under influences), but we all kept noticing the presence of God in the room. We found this to be strange. I recall when my homosexual guy friend at that time, began to get on his knees and cry out to God to deliver him. ONE LAST TIME THE LORD VISITED US, as we hot boxed( to sit in a car full of smoke). I open my mouth, unaware I said. " This music stuff is not a blessing from God, its a distraction from the enemy to keep us from doing what God really called us to do." Shocked by my own words, I looked over at my group member and yelled " I QUIT!"( and so did she) I knew those words was spoken out of my mouth were from God. THE VIXENZ WAS OVER THAT NIGHT! We had already began to go to church on Sundays, but one Sunday morning I heard the Lord voice say, " You remember Greater Shiloh?, Go there Today." I had plans of visiting another church,but I obeyed the voice of God. I came broken,bruise,and batter by the life of sin; as I set in Sunday school. I set there and tears began to rolled down my eyes uncontrollably, i couldn't hide it . Ashley lend over and said " Whats wrong with you?" I said " I feel the presence of God in this place." - that Sunday a lost sheep return back to the foal, to never leave the shepherd arms again. NOW MY LIFE IS FULL OF JOY, PEACE, AND HAPPINESS- IN CHRIST JESUS.
IF YOU ARE LIVING A LIFE OF SIN and You want GOD to FORGIVE YOU! AND GIVE YOU A LIFE FULL OF JOY AND PEACE, THAT DRUGS,SEX,AND PARTIES,MONEY,FAME CAN'T GIVE YOU
say this prayer, and mean it with all of your heart.
DEAR JESUS, I AM A SINNER. I BELIEVE YOU ARE THE SON OF GOD AND DIED FOR MY SINS ON THE CROSS. FORGIVE ALL OF MY SINS. JESUS, I REPENT. I ASK YOU TO HAVE MERCY ON ME, A SINNER, AND COME INTO MY LIFE. GIVE ME YOUR SPIRIT AND YOUR POWER. HELP ME TO FOLLOW AND OBEY YOUR COMMANDMENTS, AND TO LIVE FOR YOU. JESUS, I GIVE YOU MY LIFE. THANK YOU FOR HEARING MY PRAYER. THANK YOU FOR COMING INTO MY LIFE. I ASK IT IN THE NAME OF MY LORD AND SAVIOR, JESUS CHRIST. AMEN. - if you said that prayer AND MEANT IT, FIND YOU A GOOD CHURCH, TELL THE PASTOR WHEN YOU GET THERE I'VE ACCEPTED CHRIST IN MY LIFE NOW WHAT NEXT! HE WILL LEAD YOU FROM THERE.
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